Past, Present, and Future of Life

If only you Understood that, Jarrod. :(

For the most part, I agree.

Coming Out Story Pt. 2.

So, This part of my Coming out Story will be describing parts of the psychological aspect of what I went through while coming out.

So, when I started coming out, it was very difficult, because I was, and still am, socially awkward, and didn’t know how to come out. I didn’t spend much time on Youtube, nor did I do any research of different ways to come out, so when I was coming out, it was a stressor for me to come out, and when the rumors started going around, it put me in a depressive state for quiet some time, like for 4-5 years, ranging from mild to severe depression throughout those years. Even when I had a supportive group of people by me, I was still depressed. Then, with what was going on amongst me and my sister didn’t help.

Early on, during those 4-5 years, I was suicidal. I attempted only once or twice to actually commit suicide, with almost taking another life with me (a friend). That was because I still felt uncomfortable with myself being gay.

It wasn’t until mid-2012, where I started fully accepting myself, and embracing it more. That’s because I felt like I spent way too long having a big part of me be very selective on being embraced.